#just a quick little ramble before i go do schoolwork LMAO
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quuma Ā· 2 years ago
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i feel like everyone and their mother has spoken about this before but james potter is 100% the biggest puppy bf i've ever witnessed in literature !! like bro has MAXIMUM puppy dog stats
he's the kind of bf to INSIST UPON carrying your textbooks/bags for you and escort you to your classes class,,, like he would literally REFUSE to not do either of them,,, he gets so worked up about it that it's actually kind of pathetic (in a cute way),,,
you wouldnt even be able to carry them for 5 mins in his presence before he's scooping them out of your arms ("james i quite obviously have two perfectly functioning hands just let me hold my books pls" and his completely serious response would be "but im your bf??? and my hands are also free rn??? it's literally my job to hold your books just stfu and let me")
continuing the escorting headcanon he always ends up having to sprint to off to try and make it to his own class in time BDAHBFDH as soon as you retreive your books and walk into the classroom you try to look back and thank him,,, but there's literally just a cartoonish cloud of smoke where he stood not even 5 seconds prior (he insists that it's a good warmup for his quiddich practice)
he's also the kinda bf to literally SHOVE himself in front of you to beat you to the door, just so he can open it, dramatically wave his hand, bow, and say something cringey like "for you, my lady/liege" (BARF THATS SO CUTE IM LITERALLY GOING TO THROW UP)
OMG ALSO HE'S JUST INSANELY OBSERVANT WHEN IT COMES TO YOU????? to the point where it would be considered creepy if it wasnt james,, yknow?? there was definitely a time where upon meeting you at the door of the potions class you just finished (yes he is flushed, out of breath and sweating,,, no, he isnt going to admit that he sprinted from his C.F.M.C class 5mins early to make sure he met you at the door in time) and he does a double take and looks genuinely concerned before saying "???? pookie??? what happened to your hair???? did you do something different?? it looks different from when i saw you this morning !! D:" queue you responding with "?? wtf? i cut off a singular strand of hair for one of the potions how the actual fuck did you notice that??"
he is so babygirl i love it
i swear im not even a james stan but i can't help but ramble abt his bbygirlness
hes such a puppy dog bf
he just has the biggest heart eyes for you bro ( -3-) follows you around like a lost puppyyyyy
you dont just have him wrapped around your finger - you have him tattooed and superglued onto you istg
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summonerscenarios Ā· 4 years ago
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Whoops, Looks like the protagonist has been doused with water. Enough that it's made their shirt basically see-through and the wet fabric is defining their physique. The Summoners guild members see this first-hand, what are their reactions? (Extra points if the protagonist is unconsciously making an appealing pose.)
Ah yes nothing like flustering our fav Summoners~ I know that these were supposed to be spicy but honestly I think they turned out more funny than anything lmao. Hope ya still like em hun~!
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TojiĀ 
It had been raining during classes - youā€™d noticed it starting up earlier on and had promptly distracted yourself from the rest of the class to focus on watching the raindrops race down the window. By the time class lets out itā€™s died down to a light drizzle which you can tell everyone is thankful for not having to head back in a downpour, though the pools of water that have collected along the gutter and pavements are deep enough that your shoes practically disappear into a puddle when you accidentally stepped into it on the way out. Youā€™re so preoccupied trying in vain to shake as much water off of your now soaked socks as you can that you end up falling behind Toji, reaching the crossing by the time he had already crossed over to the other side. Making a move to step out into the street you barely even leave the pavement before a car comes racing past, ignoring the lights and just barely missing you as it all but sends a wave of water right into your face.Ā 
The force is enough that you stumble back, whirling around to cuss out the driver as you storm across the road and spit out what water had managed to get into your mouth when you screamed with growing disdain. Youā€™re so pissed at your bad luck that you donā€™t even think to check the state of your poor uniform before you suddenly feel something draped across your shoulders the second your feet touch the pavement on the other side. Itā€™s Tojiā€™s coat, and when you turn to him you can see heā€™s trying his damn hardest to look anywhere but at you with a steadily reddening face. He warns you that the water has turned your shirt practically translucent, and to hold onto his jacket until you can find a better alternative, but itā€™s hard to take him seriously when he wonā€™t even make eye contact with you after spotting your rain-sodden state.
You laugh and joke that itā€™s not the first time heā€™s seen under your shirt, watching his face turn and even prettier shade of red as heā€™s quick to correct you that patching you up is different, and to be more careful with what you say before others assume the wrong idea. Sure itā€™s a bit of a killjoy if you want to tease him about it further, but youā€™re grateful that he gave you his jacket nonetheless, burying your nose into the fabric and sighing at the welcome warmth it provides against the cold chill of your soaked clothes. It smells just like him and the cozy feeling of it makes you forget all about your anger at the driver as the two of you begin to head back to the dorm rooms, not noticing the soft look Toji gives you watching you snuggle into his uniform jacket.
Ryota
You donā€™t start regretting leaving your dorm room without an umbrella until youā€™re halfway to your meeting point with Ryota, where what was once a short drizzle becomes a full on downpour. Youā€™re fortunate enough that it doesnā€™t last long, but by the time it finally lets up you already feel soggy and cold and ready to head right back, and you probably would if you hadnā€™t promised to meet up at the new dessert shop in town to try out as many prime baked goods as the two of you could carry. Plus it was his treat - and no amount of rain was going to stop you from being treated to free desserts! When you finally arrive at the meeting place you spot Ryota before he spots you, shaking off the last of the rain from his umbrella before he closes it up and you donā€™t think twice about approaching him.Ā 
When you greet him you watch as his expression lights up and he spins around to greet you, however whatever greeting he may have had for you instead comes out as a gasp and flustered rambling when he gets a good look at you. Youā€™re confused, head tilted and hands on your hips as you try to make out what heā€™s saying, catching ā€˜shirtā€™ and ā€˜rainā€™ before you finally take a proper look at your state after running through a downpour. Your shirt took the brunt of the rainfall, the white fabric not faring well against the water and clinging to your skin, and while you donā€™t really care that itā€™s see through the fact you donā€™t have a dry pair on hand sucks. Frowning you pull at the fabric and grimace at the noise it makes as it unsticks from your skin, suddenly wishing that youā€™d really thought ahead and brought an umbrella.
You donā€™t think Ryotaā€™s face can get much redder until you contemplate if itā€™s better to just take the shirt off, and he jumps in to stop you before you can actually pull it off to ask if youā€™d just like to borrow his school jacket instead. He worries that the cold weather mixed with your soaked clothes is going to lead to you catching a cold so he feels a lot better about giving it to you than to just stand around for who knows how long. That and he gets super flustered at the sight of your physique beneath your shirt - not that itā€™s bad or anything! If anything you look amazing! He can see how much work youā€™ve put into training because of how the shirt clings to your muscles, and your body shape is more pronounced like this and it honestly looks rather appealing. But that train of thought just leaves Ryota blushing even more and even more insistent that you take his coat so you donā€™t get cold, which you do after making him promise that you guys can still head in and grab some dessert before you have to worry about getting changed.
Kengo
It was an honest accident but Kengoā€™s 100% convinced that it's your fault. It isnā€™t uncommon for the Summonerā€™s to pull pranks on each other - hell you guys still liked having fun like any other students, and knowing each otherā€™s weaknesses like you guys do means one of you always has the advantage when a prank war starts up. Youā€™d roped Kengo into helping you balance a water bucket on top of the statehouse door, needing his help to give you the leverage to balance it so that it would fall as soon as the door opened. This was all in the name of revenge for some prank Hanuman has pulled on you last week, you didnā€™t go into details but hell if you need some help to get back at him Kengoā€™s totally game for it!Ā 
Sitting on Kengoā€™s shoulders youā€™d began inching the bucket against the rim of the doorframe, constantly testing to make sure that it wouldnā€™t fall if you were to let go the whole time - you were taking your sweet time, ignoring the hushed whispers to hurry up before. This had to be perfect. If Hanuman caught sight of it any time before it hit, you knew your prank would have been for nothing - youā€™d been putting thought into it for a while and youā€™d be damned if this wasnā€™t planned down to the T. Eventually you finished up, coaxing Kengo to take a step back so that you can admire your handiwork before waiting for the chaos to unfold...
But then the door slams open, smacking Kengo in the face and sending you falling ass over tit off of his shoulders and onto the floor. The force makes the bucket teeter, and for only a second youā€™re hopeful that it will fall away from you; but the clatter it makes as it proceeds to dumb itā€™s entire contents onto your head is quick to dash any of those hopes and you screech at the cold water that covers both you and the floor surrounding you. Groaning in disappointment you vaguely register the frenzied apologies of Ryota who was the one who opened the door but youā€™re more upset about being doused in water. Kengoā€™s still nursing the hit to his face when he hears you complaining about how the waterā€™s soaked your clothes and doesnā€™t think anything of telling you to just take em off if theyā€™re that wrecked until he turns back around and sees that youā€™ve taken his advice and tugged off your shirt to start trying to soak up the mess before Agyo spots it. Itā€™s not like he hasnā€™t seen your muscles before, however thatā€™s been during training and fights so he hasnā€™t actually gone out of his way to look at your physique. Seeing how you look now though Kengo canā€™t help but stare, watching as you huff and flop back on the floor in defeat. The momentā€™s only broken by Agyoā€™s distressed scream when he sees the state your ā€˜prankā€™ has left the poor safehouse in, the lion dog storming over to give the two of you an earful for making such a mess.Ā 
Shiro
Setting up weekly meetings at the safehouse had become part of the routine for the Summoners - it was a safe place where you could all meet up and not have to worry about app battles and focus on making plans, finishing schoolwork or just hanging out. Shiroā€™s always the first one to show up, being the one who usually calls for these meetings in the first place he enjoys the few moments of peace on his own before the other members begin filtering in after school hours. This time was no different, and after making sure everything was tidy enough he settled down in a chair with a book to pass the time. Heā€™d gotten texts from Ryota and Hanuman that theyā€™d be a bit late to the safehouse and of course Kengo just shows up without warning so thereā€™s no word from him, so Shiro expected that heā€™d have a little more time to himself while he waited.
That is until the safehouse door slams open. He can already hear you cussing up a storm before you yell out to ask if anyoneā€™s got some spare clothes; confused, Shiro gets out of his seat to see whatā€™s happened right as you round the doorway and almost immediately he can feel a flush rising to his cheeks. Youā€™ve already shucked off your shirt and shoes leaving them in a crumpled heap on the floor and youā€™re halfway through hopping out of your socks when you almost run into him, apologizing for the mess. Shiro hadnā€™t even realized it was raining outside but youā€™re soaked through, trekking puddles in your wake and looking absolutely miffed about the whole situation; however heā€™s more painfully aware of the fact that youā€™re now stripping off said wet clothes as you move further into the safehouse.Ā 
Youā€™re just about to reach for the next item of clothing when Shiroā€™s brain kicks back into gear and he spins around to catch up with you, hurriedly explaining to wait until he gets you something to dry off before you resort to pulling everything off, successfully convincing you to take a seat next to the heater to warm yourself up while he rushes around trying to find something to deal with the water. He comes back with some thatā€™d been kept stashed in the back for cleanup - they only cover your shoulders but theyā€™re warm enough to do the job and you take them from him with a nod of thanks. You canā€™t help but notice that Shiroā€™s pink up to the tips of his ears as he does so, trying to hide the fact that heā€™s looking with a cough before he retreats back to his chair, and itā€™s honestly impossible not to chuckle when you catch his eye and he nearly drops his book with how fast he tries to hide his face in it.
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kairoth Ā· 7 years ago
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1-7, 10, 12-15, 18-24, 28, 30, 38-46, 49-52, 60-61, 72-75, 85-92, 100, 102, 104-114, 117-120, 124-127, 129, 135-150? Do whichever you want though.
hey! done on laptop so sorry if there are any mistakes
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
ā™„ my mum?? i think.
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
ā™„ definitely shy
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
ā™„ wellll soon we'll be going to see the two lil puppies i've gotta choose from and i'm excited about that!
4. Are you easy to get along with?
ā™„ i mean... idk?
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
ā™„ prob not
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
ā™„ hhh kind people. like, attracted to as in i'd date them... same thing pretty much but also i tend to fall for more dominant people. Ā 
7. Do you think youā€™ll be in a relationship two months from now?
ā™„ prob not lmao. no one wants to date me i'm gross
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
ā™„ uhh my mum. last night. sort of.
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
ā™„ literally every song by EDEN takes up my top 50.
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
ā™„ YEA
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
ā™„ i mean sometimes.
15. What good thing happened this summer?
ā™„ it's not summer yet but uhhhh i'm gonna get a puppy!
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
ā™„ hhh our parents are friends and we're still kind of awkward friends? we haven't like actually had full conversations in a long time but we still hang out sometimes.
19. Do you like bubble baths?
ā™„ yea! but like,, not to where you get bubbles in your mouth cos bleh
20. Do you like your neighbors?
ā™„ a little! the people close to us are pretty nice. there's this one old lady across the way from us whose dog i used to walk. she let's me pick oranges from her tree and talks to me. it's fun! she's away from home a lot tho since her husband died.
21. What are you bad habits?
ā™„ rambling, for one. picking at threads for two. uhh, can't think of any more off the top of my head but there's definitely a bunch of other ones.
22. Where would you like to travel?
ā™„ i reallllyyy wanna go to Ireland. definitely some places in Asia and some more in Europe.
23. Do you have trust issues?
ā™„ yes.
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
ā™„ sleeeeep. soon enough it'll prob be my puppy
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
ā™„ my cats and my mum. ooh and my aunt danni.
30. Do you ever want to get married?
ā™„ maybe! i'm pretty polyamorous tho and if i was in a relationship with more than one person it'd feel unfair if i only married one of them... so it'd be really cool if we could make polyamorous marriage a thing pls.
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
ā™„ OOF. uh. just. someone who is kind and loves me and will take care of me, and who i can do the same for. someone who will put up with my clinginess and paranoia. someone who loves animals and hates people who abuse animals or kids or other people just as much as i do. someone who can put up with my quirks in general. i always imagine someone who, if we're separated and reunite, will let me run to them and do the hug thing where they pick me up lol. we can read books to each other and they won't get frustrated if i stumble over my words, we can share music with each other, cook/bake with each other, travel, see an animal and just coo over them together, watch horror movies even tho i hate them but it's ok because i have them with me. sorry long answer lmao,, i got carried away
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
ā™„ barnes n noble, hot topic just bc, and uuuuuuh that's it.
40. What do you want to do after high school?
ā™„ ideally i could do a gap year to travel. i might do a gap year and work so i can get money. i don't know if i can get into college, but my mum suggested interning for a local vet, even tho i'm not in medicine, because it's good to have that knowledge if i wanna own an animal shelter. it's a good idea so i might do that.
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
ā™„ it depends. sometimes if you give someone a second chance they'll take it and stab you with it (metaphorically). it all just depends on what they did, who they are, how they are, how they feel about what they did.
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
ā™„ i used to be super loud when i was younger. sometimes i am when with close friends. now, it could just be that i'm focused, or thinking, or comfortable, or sad, or sick, or upset. when i'm angry with my aunt bc she won't stop messing with me i'll go silent. idk.
43. Do you smile at strangers?
ā™„ sometimes!
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
ā™„ i'd like to say neither and outerspace. the ocean terrifies me. but so does outer space sometimes????
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
ā™„ depends on what's happening that day. if something exciting is happening i'll prob get up quick. and if i'm in bed cos i don't feel good then the thing that gets me up is like. the fear of disappointing my parents by not doing anything. or when like my cat is very insistent on needing something (like food or water or getting out of my room) and i don't want to be a bad owner and not get it.
46. What are you paranoid about?
ā™„ fff what am i not paranoid about?
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
ā™„ mmm... nothing i can really think about?
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
ā™„ black.
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
ā™„ oh definitely
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
ā™„ my appearance. or my personality. hm.
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
ā™„ mmm... i won a fencing competition once. but like. it wasn't a huge competition. just a few little series of fights that our teacher was having us do.
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
ā™„ nahh. i've gotten two detentions but never suspended
72. What colour are your towels?
ā™„ uhh the ones i use are white striped w green and pink.
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
ā™„ there are two 72s??? oh well. uhh only one
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
ā™„ yea! most of them are just around me, the only two i actually snuggle with are my bbies teddy (a bear i've had since 5) and addi (a panda i got like two years ago?)
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
ā™„ uhh. maybe 30? or somewhere around there?
75. Favourite animal?
ā™„ don't make me chooooose
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
ā™„ never seen it
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
ā™„ hhh nemo. he's such a good little clever fishie. v mischievous tho
87. First person you talked to today?
ā™„ mum!
88. Last person you talked to today?
ā™„ uh prob gonna be my mum
89. Name a person you hate?
ā™„ trump
90. Name a person you love?
ā™„ syd ! my kitty
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
ā™„ uuuuuuuh nah
92. In a fight with someone?
ā™„ ? nah
100. How are you feeling?
ā™„ rn? pretty ok. i just finished my geometry course so i've only got three classes left !
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
ā™„ yes. my entire past. being born. like yikes
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
ā™„ yes.
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
ā™„ yup
106. Ever broken someoneā€™s heart?
ā™„ ? who knows
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
ā™„ yea! i used to do lessons but i stopped
108. What should you be doing?
ā™„ rn? schoolwork
109. Is something irritating you right now?
ā™„ schoolwork
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
ā™„ definitely
111. Do you have trust issues?
ā™„ yes
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
ā™„ uh my cat i think
113. What was your childhood nickname?
ā™„ hb
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
ā™„ yea! my fave state to go to currently is maryland. i love the temperature and the landscape and the fireflies.
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
ā™„ sometimes!
118. Do you like Chinese food?
ā™„ one of my faves tbh
119. Favourite book?
ā™„ oof. that's a hard one. uhm. we were liars by e. lockhart.
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
ā™„ yes.
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
ā™„ no. lust at first sight, yea, but not love.
125. Do you believe in true love?
ā™„ maybe.
126. Are you currently bored?
ā™„ a lil.
127. What makes you happy?
ā™„ loved ones, animals, music, warm blankets.
129. What your zodiac sign?
ā™„ this is always a complex answer from me lmao. technically i'm a leo. but i was supposed to be born in october, not august. and i've always related more to scorpio (and pisces tbh lmao). so i always wanna say i'm a scorpio
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
ā™„ FF. IT'S SO DUMB I DON'T EVEN WANNA SAY. WORST TIME OF MY LIFE. sorry for caps
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
ā™„ closed
137. How tall are you?
ā™„ 4'11
138. Curly or Straight hair?
ā™„ on me? well long it's curly but it's short rn. it kinda still curls in some spots tho
139. Brunette or Blonde?
ā™„ naturally i'm a mix. or 'dirty blonde'
140. Summer or Winter?
ā™„ winter.
141. Night or Day?
ā™„ night
142. Favourite month?
ā™„ november
143. Are you a vegetarian?
ā™„ nahh. i enjoy meat too much
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
ā™„ milk chocolate is the only chocolate in my eyes
145. Tea or Coffee?
ā™„ mmm that's hard. i love earl grey tea but coffeeeeeeeeeeeee
146. Was today a good day?
ā™„ eh. i finished a class so yea
147. Mars or Snickers?
ā™„ snickers
148. Whatā€™s your favourite quote?
ā™„ ffffff idk tbh
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
ā™„ i am a ghost!!!
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, whatā€™s the first line on that page?
ā™„ there's no book close to me and i couldn't find my fave which is stressing but i'll do this before looking for it so i'mma just use a random one. book is we all looked up, by tommy wallach. "he marched into the school and took the director aside, explaining that they had a strict rule in their house - curriculars before extracurriculars."
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paperhattt Ā· 7 years ago
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An update on me and my fanfics:
Hey everyone. Iā€™ve been meaning to post this for a super long time and finally am going to. For quick answers: YES! I am going to updateĀ ā€œRevenge: A Dish Best Served Coldā€ Donā€™t worry I know it has been on a super long hiatus but I will not abandon it. Also Iā€™m so sorry to people who have sent me questions and mail, I really need to respond to those I know..Ā 
For anyone interested in why Iā€™ve been so absent and only really reblogging posts on here, and have been on a hiatus from writing, explanations are below:Ā 
Iā€™m going to try to keep this brief but I know it probably wonā€™t be since I ramble. (Yep Iā€™m right this is long ahh)Ā Ā 
My life has been pretty stressful. College started for me back in August, and it is my last semester before I will transfer again to start on a Bachelors degree next. Iā€™ve been devoting a lot of my time to my classes because I want to end strongly to boost my GPA some more. (Right now, all Aā€™s! But lately Iā€™ve majorly slacked in one class, so fingers crossed I get a decent grade in it..)Ā 
Thereā€™s been personal matters going on that have affected me a lot to where I have not felt any motivation to do anything what so ever. I havenā€™t been able to focus on things (like writing or schoolwork) and have been pretty restless.Ā 
Back near the end of Sept. I was having some problems with my health because I kept having re-occurences of vomiting and getting sick, and not knowing why I was or what foods were triggering that. I did an elimination diet and cut out gluten and dairy, and have been doing a lot better. I have brought a little bit of both of them back into my diet recently (just eating them occasionally when I have gone out with friends) and haven't been sick.. but I know my body feels a lot better without them.. Iā€™m going to have my blood taken next year so perhaps that may tell me something, idk. My parents are the types where if I am not dying or bleeding out, they will not take me to the doctors. And itā€™s all fine, I love them both a lot, and Iā€™ve been okay and havenā€™t gotten ill again. I worry and have a bit of anxiety, so I would have liked to go of course, but they both have busy schedules and such..Ā 
There has also been relationship problems (both with friendships and potential relationships). This has all been in the span of this school year starting, so itā€™s all been happening really quick and has overwhelmed me.Ā I lost a friend, grown distant with others because they have changed, and have had a lot of almost relationships happen but have then fallen through. And thatā€™s been an extreme disappointment to me because I have wanted a boyfriend for a really long time; and have never been in a serious relationship (or really any), but really want to be. For some odd reason I have felt this a lot stronger, the longing to be in one, and a lot harder in my life than I ever have before. And I think itā€™s becauseĀ Iā€™ve gotten closer to almost having it happen. I devoted sometime into people who wanted different things (less serious things), and into a guy who deceived me into thinking he was somebody else with different intentions. Iā€™m proud because I cut off a lot of the people who I knew werenā€™t going to work out with me, including the guy who played me. RegardlessĀ I think it all hit me so hard because I gave my hopes up, and told myself having a boyfriend would distract me from everyday problems and make me happier.. of course I learned that you have to be the person to make yourself happy and that it is unhealthy to heavily depend on another person for your own happiness. And right now Iā€™m trying to focus on getting myself happier, not holding the idea of having a boyfriend so highly, and with that becoming more independent again.Ā 
There is also family problems on top of that, but they are underlying and have been in my life for years. A lot of things that cannot be fixed, and are hard to live around every day. Things I know will be better once Iā€™m able to distance myself when I transfer to a university, because the environment I am in (and have been in) can be a bit negative and stuffy. And itā€™s matters where it will just be better when I transfer.Ā 
But itā€™s not all bad, and I hate to sound so negative. I have incredible friends, and have met some people who are more in my maturity and want the same things I do out of life. They have stood by my side through my hardships, and have been insanely supportive of me. Parents are frustrating, and I donā€™t agree on all the decisions they have made, but of course I still love them both a lot. And I have a sister who shares a lot of the same problems I do since she lives around it all too, so she understands.Ā 
Iā€™ve just had a lot of overwhelming events happen out of nowhere and in a short period of time.Ā 
I am okay, and from these recent experiences have learned a lot.Ā Iā€™ve just had a really hard time focusing, and have been in this pit lately. But I am starting to pick myself back up, and I know that Iā€™m going to be okay because I have picked myself up many times before.Ā 
Iā€™m insanely hard on myself, so I beat myself up 24/7. Iā€™m mad at myself that Iā€™m not doing more, like finishing my fics. and writing independently. I think all the time about how I need to write this post and respond to the messages I have. Just in general (in life) I focus on what I have yet to do instead of focusing all my accomplishments;Ā and from doing that I get frustrated. Iā€™m pretty negative, and want to start to be positive again like I was a couple months ago.. I go through stages like anyone I suppose.Ā This all adds stress on me, that I know I have to change a little, and I know itā€™s all something I have to work on. Itā€™s just a habit atm.Ā 
Overall Iā€™m just a bit of an overwhelmed mess. I know what I want and have a lot of goals set, itā€™s just a matter of pushing myself harder to do those things (not too much, of course I know). I just have to organize myself again which takes some effort, but I know itā€™s long over due and something I need to do to be a healthier person on the inside.Ā 
Iā€™m ready to writingĀ ā€œRevenge..ā€ (Iā€™m way too lazy to write the whole title lmao) again. Iā€™m starting to feel motivation again to actually write which makes me insanely happy.Ā I just donā€™t want it to distract me from my homework, and I have had so much with all the classes Iā€™ve had :( Like I should be doing it now, whoops lol.Ā 
Regardless I love you all, and thank you all for staying with me and being so patient. Thank you for your support on my fics, and for all the love you give me! I wish I could do more at the moment for you all, and show you how much it really means to me. Iā€™m excited now to start writing again, and hopefully can and will start on the next chapter and on future fics. soon.Ā 
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